Thursday, June 30, 2011

Vegas weather is sucking the creativity out of me: My current thoughts about the writing process

I can't seem to write anything lately, and as you can tell from the title of this blog, I'm just going to blame the weather. Other people blame the weather for stuff all the time, so I've decided I'm just going to make a habit of doing that too. Instead of, "Oh, I have to stop my exercise plan because it's sooooo hot," or "Sorry I forgot to pay for my gas and drove away. The heat must be getting to me, " I'm just going to say that I get heat stroke every time I open the document that contains my novel manuscript.



When it gets cold, I'll say my computer keys gave me frostbite.

Anyway, my writing malaise might actually have started because I'm going to be graduating with my MFA at the end of this month. I'm basically done at this point. I've sent off my thesis, made the powerpoint for my lecture, and purchased my plane ticket to Nebraska for my last residency. But I can't seem to think past graduation. To be honest, I don't have any plans. I can't really imagine what it will be like not to have the guarenteed 10 days with my writing pals every six months. I love every one of them, and for a long time, my writing has depended on not letting them down.

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Book Review: The Long Journey Home by Margaret Robison AKA The Worst Book Ever

My first reading project for the summer was to finish the memoirs of the Robison family back to back to back.

For those of you who don't know. Chris Robison (AKA Augusten Burroughs) wrote a bestseller called Running With Scissors, which details his chaotic childhood living at his mother's crazed therapist's house after his parents became too unstable to raise Chris themselves.

The second book is the memoir of John Elder Robison (Augusten Burroughs' brother), which details his childhood as a misfit and his eventual diagnosis with Asperger's Syndrome at age 50. This book also became a bestseller.

These two books deserve all the accolade they've been given: Burroughs' book is a delightful, comical survivor's story, and Robison's book is a truly unique account of growing up with Asperger's.

It's the third book, John Elder and Christopher's mother's memoir The Long Journey Home, that really threw me into a fit of rage, and I don't mean the kind inspired by really good, dark literature.



First of all, no one would even bother to pick up the memoir of Margaret Robison, a mediocre, manic-depressive poet, were her sons not so infamous. I decided to read the book hoping to gain some insight into Margaret's horrific parenting, or at least to feel some sympathy for a woman who has been so demonized in literature and the press. Neither of my expectations were fulfilled.

For one thing, the writing in this memoir is atrocious. I understand this woman had a stroke, but I would expect Random House to at least maintain the editorial standard that readers have grown to expect. If I had to read one more scene in which Margaret hangs her head and cries pitifully, I would have thrown the book across the room. It reads like a stream of consciousness with no discernible structure or purpose. I read the book in two weeks because it was so boring. Usually, I finish books within 48 hours.

Second, Margaret doesn't even attempt to apologize for the way she neglected her sons. I understand she was mentally ill and in an abusive marriage, but she seems to use these facts as excuses and a simple ploy to elicit pity from the reader. In fact, she accuses both sons of lying in their memoirs, stating she knows that her side of their stories is the truth, while in the same breath admitting that she has major holes in her memory due to a stroke and bouts of psychosis.

Third, since the only reason anyone picked up the book was to read more about John Elder and Chris' childhoods, it would have made sense for her to actually write about them. The fact that a mother can write nearly 400 pages of memoir while only rarely mentioning her sons, and only then to slander them, is something I find both troubling and narcissistic.

Fourth, Margaret should have been able gain my sympathy easily because she is a)lonely b)elderly c) mentally ill d) partially paralyzed, and e) estranged from her youngest son. On the contrary, I felt nothing but disgust for this woman who seemed to use her sons' fame only to get this lousy book in the hands of an agent. Shame on her. I hope she gets back into therapy and fixes herself while she still has time left.

Sunday, June 26, 2011

There are definitely parts of Bad Teacher to which I relate.



Let me preface this post by telling you the part of Cameron Diaz' character I can't relate to: the hating teaching part. I love being a teacher, I love kids, and I (think I) am pretty good at it.

But then again, I laughed a lot during this movie, which is because there was a lot of truth to it.

First, like Diaz' character, Elizabeth, I never thought I'd be a teacher in the long term. I too envisioned myself marrying rich and never working again, wracking up large credit card bills at Bloomingdale's buying clothes and Manolos.

Second, like the perennially annoying supporting characters in this film, the public school system is filled with well-meaning but irritating educators that often made me want to put my sweatshirt over my head and nap.

Third, an extremely high percentage of public school teachers I once worked with used their hard-earned salaries to buy implants. Unfortunately they didn't perform the courtesy of scheduling surgery during the summer.

That's about where the similarities end. I highly recommend this movie for anyone who has spent time in the classroom.

Thursday, June 23, 2011

Lake Mead does not have a real beach.

Sorry everyone in the tri-state area, but going to Lake Mead does not count as going to the beach. If you want a real beach, go to California. What do I mean by a "real" beach? Well, first of all, it shouldn't look like Nevada's version of the tar pits.
Does this look like a good place to sun bathe and feed seagulls to you? Yet, me neither.

But many Las Vegans insist that Lake Mead is beachy, mostly, I think, to make themselves feel more secure about living in the middle of the desert.

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

Between Fact and Fantasy

I know, I'm blogging again. Shocking, right? One day I got stuck, and then another day passed and then another. Soon, I had piles of things to write about that accumulated like dirty laundry. Each pile spread into each other pile, and soon, I was buried.

And there are always better things to do and excuses. I had to get rid of a lot of shoes I hadn't worn in a long time. And then I became a mother to my beautiful adopted Morkie, Badugi. In the important things, I am a perfectionist, and Dugi is important enough to deserve all my time.

So here's a stream of consciousness of all the things you've missed, and then in my next post, I'll be normal again, and it will be like we never stopped communicating at all...

...Carolyn Goodman is mayor of Vegas tourists who think swimsuits are clothes that scream for me to buy them from the rack when I'm trying to save money to buy a car dealer who works at Hyundai and doesn't know the names of the models who I find out now are only 16 or 17 and make me feel old photographs that I find when cleaning and that I want to through away but can't sleep because Badugi is licking my face serum that costs $200 for several ounces of happiness I feel when I think of how good summer vacation was as a kid ourselves that the economy here will ever be the same as it used to be careful when going to the grocery store when hungry for change...

Talk to you soon.